It wasn’t wind. It differently burned.
My child’s child, a reptile in pumice. A white
that wasn’t a cloud. Santorini, a blown
gasket, disappearing into a future without us.
I had no skin. So many nights, I held my wrist
over coal to cauterize the open veins. To
not die, you see, was a powerful choice. To
every morning, this was all to life there was. Burned
and hostile, I wasn’t ready to unhook from your wrist.
A wave and then another. Islands flanked with white.
I among the seventy-plus lost to the caldera. Among us
I lived least on a trajectory. A lit wet stick blown
Aisha Sabatini Sloan
Episode 22: “Form and Formlessness”
In an essay specially commissioned for the podcast, Aisha Sabatini Sloan describes rambling around Paris with her father, Lester Sloan, a longtime staff photographer for Newsweek, and a glamorous woman who befriends them. In an excerpt from The Art of Fiction no. 246, Rachel Cusk and Sheila Heti discuss how writing her first novel helped Cusk discover her “shape or identity or essence.” Next, Allan Gurganus’s reading of his story “It Had Wings,” about an arthritic woman who finds a fallen angel in her backyard, is interspersed with a version of the story rendered as a one-woman opera by the composer Bruce Saylor. The episode closes with “Dear Someone,” a poem by Deborah Landau.
Rachel Cusk photo courtesy the author.
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