To look at them, you might not think the two men, having spoken briefly
and now moving away from each other, as different goals
require, have much history, if any,
between them. That, for a time that seems longer ago now than in fact
it’s been, they used to enter each other’s bodies so often, so routinely,
yet without routine ever seeming the right way of putting it,
that even they lost count—back then,
who counted? It’s not as if they’ve forgotten, or at least
the one hasn’t, looking long enough back at the other
to admire how outwardly unchanged he seems: still muscled, even if
each muscle most brings to mind (why, though)
an oracle done hiding at last, all the mystery made
quantifiable, that it might more easily that way—like love, like the impulse
toward love—be disassembled. The other man doesn’t look back
at all, or think to, more immediately distracted
Aisha Sabatini Sloan
Episode 22: “Form and Formlessness”
In an essay specially commissioned for the podcast, Aisha Sabatini Sloan describes rambling around Paris with her father, Lester Sloan, a longtime staff photographer for Newsweek, and a glamorous woman who befriends them. In an excerpt from The Art of Fiction no. 246, Rachel Cusk and Sheila Heti discuss how writing her first novel helped Cusk discover her “shape or identity or essence.” Next, Allan Gurganus’s reading of his story “It Had Wings,” about an arthritic woman who finds a fallen angel in her backyard, is interspersed with a version of the story rendered as a one-woman opera by the composer Bruce Saylor. The episode closes with “Dear Someone,” a poem by Deborah Landau.
Rachel Cusk photo courtesy the author.
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